ugh i dont know...im not in the mood right now. its 2:12am and i sorta got
done watching the art of getting by. it was an okay/slow/boring movie..fell asleep
towards the end, but i already knew what was going to happen. yep, they fall in love.
George, the main character quoted at the beginning that really hit me for some reason
"we're born alone we die alone and everything is just an illusion"
idk how i feel about this for some reason or really how to even make sense
with this blog post. tomorrow is new years, which im always excited for
a fresh start..but at the same time not up for it. i feel that this coming year wont
be as good as i ended it. well of course in particular cases. maybe im just bored,
maybe im just waiting for something/someone to come to me. and yes ill say it,
cause im sure plenty feel the same way. someone to love you, give attention to you.
of course i have family. i have a few friends that i really feel that i put in all the
effort for, but nothing in return. is that too harsh? maybe just a little or im exaggerating.
but thats what im talking about..im just bored of everything. bored of school,
bored of the same thing with my family and friends (in a certain way), bored of 
the city im in. i dont feel like i belong here, theres way more out in this world.
everyone always says u gotta work up to it...idk i see it as u gotta just go for it.
hmm im sure this doesnt make sense to anyone reading it..but it does to me.
but i guess all i can hope for is a better year- 
find a way for more excitement and to not be just content.