thoughts

havent written in awhile...




been on a roll for the past two nights watching films.


i watched the movie kids (1995) and the kite runner (2007).


both made me tear up, especially the kite runner of course.
just seeing how everyone lives different lives. kids was 
about...well obviously kids..growing up in new york,
surrounded by sex, drugs, and alcohol. thats what they 
lived for. stealing money from their parents, liquor from the stores,
having sex like its nothing at a young age, passing 
around stds. getting wasted, trespassing, and fights.
and to them, that was considered their childhood.


after watching the kite runner, its crazy to think how different
the kids in afghanistan were like... being brought up
surrounded by war.


theres a quote that said "theres alot of children in 
afghanistan, but little childhood".- Khaled Hosseini.


at a very young age, they're already seeing destruction and
fighting for their own lives and family. after watching
i did some research on the taliban...although i heard about
it growing up and whatnot with the whole 9/11...
i didnt know much about it and its all crazyness
that we dont think about everyday..but situations
like this happen outside of the us. 
wars are going on, starvation, sex slavery, abuse, etc
i can go on...


im truly blessed being born and raised american.
to me, theres the good and bad part about it. 


seeing how much freedom we have in this land,
we take advantage of it...that we lose that
sense of culture from where our family is originally from.
seeing many american children today... it hurts
me sometimes to say that we lost a sense of respect to ourselves.
those values and beliefs. 
being seen a certain way from people outside of our land and 
having that stereotype of being an american child. 
not saying im a bad child...idk i know what im talking about
but its really hard to explain :/


i can see why many people would love to come to america "the melting pot"
but also why they wouldnt want to...their land and people
are precious, something they dont want to lose.