Haven't written in a while...
Been busy with school somewhat
Less than three weeks then I have summer
School right after.

Lots of things have been bothering me lately.
Maybe I'm feeling alone. I have everyone I need
Around me, but it's like I'm tired of it.. Not necessarily
Them.. But idk its Hard to explain.
Maybe I just want someone that I can
Really talk to. Family is different, friends
Come and go. No one understands my bullshit life.
A life that I'm not enjoying right now.
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of the nonsense and
Wasted time on the Internet..except right now cause
I'm venting to a nonexistent person/stalker. Idk
Feeling uninspired than how I use to be, not
Getting what I want, feeling unhealthy,
List goes on.
What I want to be when I'm older anymore..but there's
Really no turning back anymore or it's a waste of
Money. Yep fucking money. Something I despise.
Another thing that I'm not employed.
I want to be able to buy what I want. I remember
At one point I was making good money... I was happy.

Money is the root of all evil. It really is.
Something that humans are so attached to though.
What we live for to make us happy.

I want to go places. Get out of this joke city
With a bunch of unwanted people in my life.

Is that to harsh? Nope. Cause I mean it.
If it feels real to you than nothing matters.
I know what I want in life. It's just the fucking
Process that everyone has to go through to get
To their destination. Some people have it easier
Than others which is unfair. Causes envy inside of me.
But fuck them. Everyones a hater and has a hater.

Some people r annoying me at the moment. Some don't get it.
Their oblivious to what I want and how they should fix that.
I'm selfish. But I really don't say anything out loud.
And if I ever did...boy I'd have a shitload to say.