wow..its been a new year since i posted.
funny reading at what i wrote. 

i was young, stupid, and naive thinking back at all that has happend then till now..
but somehow im still the same.
same worries, same situations

but more knowledge, more experience.

i been working. i been going to school.

i been hurt. hurt hard. 
every night i still think about someone who wasnt even mine.
how is that even possible? someone that couldve been something
at one point but all cause of my selfish ways. my insecurity. my fear.
im the one to blame. 
i question myself...is it him that i miss or just the memories we've made?
they say memories soon fade but i remember them so vividly.
is it cause it was something that i never experienced before?
that look, that touch? 
i can feel the pain in my heart. a feeling that cant be described but hurt.

i catch myself day dreaming so much. 
a little too much to the point where it's affecting the process
of me getting to that dream.

i wanna go places.
i wanna see the world.
every corner of it.
be free.
run free.
but all with you.
lets just drop all we got and leave.
together.
eat all the good food.
experience every culture.
watch the sunrise.
breath fresh air.
take pictures.
make love underneath the stars.
dance to every beat.
drink till we're wasted.
smoke till we're high.
sing to every song.
dream together.
gripped hands. big hugs. hard kisses.
explore every bit of nature.
and not have a care.
i want it all.